This was not a hit but it was a very poignant song about John Lennon after he was murdered. It was on the Tug of War album and it is a very touching song of Paul having an imaginary conversation with John. It’s a very personal side of Paul that he doesn’t show a lot.
The Tug of War album was a very good album. It peaked at #1 in 1982 and it would be his last #1 album until Egypt Station peaked at #1 in 2018.
The song peaked at #46 on the Billboard Mainstream Rock Charts.
Paul on the song: “After John died, there’d been a lot of talk about who did what and who liked who and did the Beatles argue. I was almost buying into this idea that me and John were fighting all the time. But I remembered it wasn’t true, so I wrote the song about how, ‘if you were here, you might say this or those… but I know better.’
I remember well some of the things we did. It was really for me thinking about John. We had a great relationship and like any family, there are always arguments, there’s always disputes, but in the end, we loved each other and I wanted to make a song where I actually said “I love you” to John, so that was that song.
It’s quite emotional because it came from a real feeling about him, and I wanted to correct the record in my mind as much as in any one else’s mind. There were some photos from that period which were really beautiful, and there’s just him and me working and you could see we loved each other. So, once all these rumors go about, you almost buy into them yourself. So that song helped me set the record straight.”
From Songfacts
McCartney wrote this for John Lennon after his tragic death on December 8, 1980. He sings of the years they spent together in much detail.
Paul McCartney: “The truth of the matter is when John died it was so weird for everyone and obviously for those of us that were near to him it was doubly, triply weird and then there was the obvious sort of thing is anyone going to write a song about John because obviously certainly we all felt deeply enough and normally when we felt deeply enough we committed it to song. I was wondering if I was going to do it but I thought I’m not going to sit down and try to do it but if anything comes sometime I’ll do it. I was one day just sitting quietly in this little room with my guitar and these chords started coming out and I started having these thoughts as if I was talking to myself to John about our relationship and stuff and obviously one of the things that had been funny for me was this idea of when the Beatles broke up we became enemies for a time. But I knew we weren’t and I know for a fact he knew we weren’t too because independently of each other we’d talked nicely of each other but there was a pride thing of two men very difficult business and all that.” (Transcribed from this interview.)
McCartney told The London Times December 5, 2009, that in this song, “I’m talking to John in my head. It’s a conversation we didn’t have.” He added that they were reconciled again by the time of the tragedy: “We were mates. God, that was so cool. It was the saving grace. Because it got a bit sticky after the Beatles. No, we were really good mates again – it was lovely, actually. Performing this song, in New York, where he was killed, is a very emotional affair. The last verse, where I sing ‘and if I said I really loved you, and was glad you came along,’ it’s like singing it to your dad who died.”
During the Q&A Mojo Magazine Session in November 2009, McCartney said that this song is his most difficult to perform: “I realize I’m telling this man that I love him, and it’s like, ‘Oh my god’, like I’m publicly declaring it in front of all these people I don’t know! It’s a good thing to do, though.”
McCartney performed this live on his 2002 release Back In The US.
Here Today
And if I say I really knew you well
What would your answer be?
If you were here today
Ooo ooo ooo, here today
Well, knowing you
You’d probably laugh and say
That we were worlds apart
If you were here today
Ooo ooo ooo, here today
But as for me,
I still remember how it was before
And I am holding back the tears no more
Ooo ooo ooo, I love you, ooo
What about the time we met?
Well, I suppose that you could say
That we were playing hard to get
Didn’t understand a thing
But we could always sing
What about the night we cried?
Because there wasn’t any reason
Left to keep it all inside
Never understood a word
But you were always there with a smile
And if I say I really loved you
And was glad you came along
And you were here today
Ooo ooo ooo, for you were in my song
Ooo ooo ooo, here today
I love this song so much! Especially the lyric “I am holding back the tears no more”. Beautiful.
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I’m surprised at how many people knew it…it is a touching song.
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Very interesting to read the background to this sad little song.
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Never heard this before. touching song
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A highlight from Paul’s best 1980’s album. Wonderful song.
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Yes it is… it had to be difficult for him to be that open…
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I agree- at least in public he has always seemed guarded/ awkward with his emotions.
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Yes the opposite of Lennon. He played this one both times I’ve seen him.
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Hey Hans… I have an off topic question for you. I want to make sure I didn’t subconsciously steal this idea from you and feel like a thief and jerk. I was going to post a few songs over the next few days by different artists that reference the Beatles in the lyrics. Have you done a series like that before? If so its no problem…I can just list the songs without mentioning it.
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No I haven’t done anything like that- looking forward to seeing it.
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Ok cool thanks. I just wanted to make sure. There are more than I thought.
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I like the second video better. Not the video part, because this is just a picture, but the song seems better.
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Yes the studio version is much better…I couldn’t decide which one to use. He played it both times I’ve seen him.
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Oh Jim…I’m running behind on reading posts…I’ll get to yours soon. I dropped off to sleep last night earlier than usual.
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No worries.
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First time hearing this song. Watching him and the emotions affecting his singing is very touching.
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It really is… George had the song “All Those Years Ago” which is catchier no doubt but this one is very heartfelt. ..and very unlike Paul to be this public about it.
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It’s difficult to show the real person but you’ve had that mask of always-happy on so long. I’m glad he was able to take the mask off, if only for a moment.
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I think I only ever heard it once before, many years ago. Good tune, I think I like George’s tribute and Elton’s (“Empty Garden”) better but it’s nice still and as others here said, great to see Paul reveal a little of himself and his feelings for John.
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Yea it’s not normal for Paul to be this open.
It’s not as catchy as the others for sure… really heart felt
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We’d never heard this song before, Max, and we find it very moving. A great tribute to an old mate.
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I love this song. Cried when I first heard it. You hear it and you still wonder, what if?
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It’s such a great tribute…oh yea I think of what if a lot.
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There are days when my life is full of what ifs?
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I’m with you Roger! How is it going there now covid wise? Here it’s opening up.
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Still on lockdown. Had the first shot, but they keep moving ouur vaccine supply to provincial hot spots
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I know some more bloggers than are still on lockdown…here it’s pretty much business as usual…well usual in a careful way. In Nashville they have a place to drive up and get it…it’s usually only a 3rd full.
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Max, how are things going with you?
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We are pretty much back to normal here. Restaurants are full and the cases are going down. How is it your way now?
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Numbers going down. Stores and restaurants open with limited numbers. One step at a time
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Good…I’m glad it’s happening there. That was a year I would like to forget Roger…I did though get closer to my family…we are fortunate that all of us were healthy through it.
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